The Ups, The Downs, and All The Inbetweens....

As cliche as it may sound - my life has been a roller coaster ride. My emotions and expectations have been turning inside out and upside down. I've had fun and I've been scared. While I was on this metaphorical roller coaster, you may have noticed I wasn't around much (aside from my CMS DT post). Have no fear. I'm here to update you on everything. The ups, the downs, and everything in between (and I expect you to stick around because I am interesting enough....right? Not really but I'll still give this blogging thing a whirl.)

Those of you that have been reading know that I had decided to go back to school. My first day of class was a few weeks ago. A lot has happened since then. My life was completely dedicated to studying. Anatomy is no joke! I was enjoying myself though, being a student again and making a future for myself. You can imagine how completely devastated I was when I received an email from my school telling me that my loan check had been denied and that I had until the end of the day to pay for my entire tuition or my classes would be dropped.....
We just don't have the money to pay for school out of pocket. If we did - would I have asked for a loan in the first place? This is probably the fourth or fifth time this has happened to me. Money always gets in the way of me continuing my education. I think it goes without saying that after almost two weeks of studying my butt off....I am no longer a student. I cried. A LOT. In fact - I had a panic attack. Throwing up, unable to breath, sweating...the whole shebang. I'm still pretty upset about the entire ordeal but slowly making myself cope. I just admit I feel like just giving up and working as a waitress for the rest of my life but my husband is continuing to motivate me. I'm looking into other schooling options and hoping that they will work out. ...What a huge downward spiral, right?

As for the ups and inbetweens? Just small events here and there. A memorial day cookout with my family, dying my hair funky colors, and finger painting with my baby girl. My husband and I were lucky enough to take our little girl to the beach this weekend. It was actually her first time ever being at the beach. Surprisingly, none of us got burned (we are all very fair skinned) and we had fun! It was just what I needed to get my mind off of everything that's be going on lately. Charlotte seemed to enjoy herself although she was scared of the water.

As cheesy as it may sound - as long as I have these two in my life - I can get through anything. :)