We just don't have the money to pay for school out of pocket. If we did - would I have asked for a loan in the first place? This is probably the fourth or fifth time this has happened to me. Money always gets in the way of me continuing my education. I think it goes without saying that after almost two weeks of studying my butt off....I am no longer a student. I cried. A LOT. In fact - I had a panic attack. Throwing up, unable to breath, sweating...the whole shebang. I'm still pretty upset about the entire ordeal but slowly making myself cope. I just admit I feel like just giving up and working as a waitress for the rest of my life but my husband is continuing to motivate me. I'm looking into other schooling options and hoping that they will work out. ...What a huge downward spiral, right?
As for the ups and inbetweens? Just small events here and there. A memorial day cookout with my family, dying my hair funky colors, and finger painting with my baby girl. My husband and I were lucky enough to take our little girl to the beach this weekend. It was actually her first time ever being at the beach. Surprisingly, none of us got burned (we are all very fair skinned) and we had fun! It was just what I needed to get my mind off of everything that's be going on lately. Charlotte seemed to enjoy herself although she was scared of the water.
As cheesy as it may sound - as long as I have these two in my life - I can get through anything. :)